The Turquoise Blueprint

This is an inner journey….be prepared to leave some part of you behind!

Saturn Rx in Scorpio…..he’s back!

Saturn moved into Scorpio on 5 October 2012. On 23 December 2014 Saturn enters Sagittarius. Then, on 15 June 2015 Saturn in retrograde re-enters Scorpio, before finally settling in Sagittarius on 18 September 2015.

Saturn stays in a sign for about 2.5 years, we get to really know the theme or lesson he wants us to learn, being in Scorpio he is taking you deeper, deeper into the realms of emotional, psychic, and psychological levels of your soul. He really wants you to clean out the basement; you know the place where you store all the shit about your life, all the fears that are tucked away, the murky place and feelings that lurk just under the surface which you try so desperately to keep hidden, but then of cause here comes Saturn, he’s bringing whatever tool, trick in the book to get you to face the fears and get your soul in gear, so you can start living a more true and real version of you. Unpack or release those emotions and get the fuck for real, he say’s to you on a daily basis. What is he doing? preparing you for the time when Saturn re-enters Sagittarius.

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It’s difficult with these two because they both like control and when you are filled with fear, control is very important, nobody likes to feel like life is unraveling all around them, there is no safe place to go or that feeling of completely losing control, or finding that you are always screaming inside. Finding the solid place within yourself, knowing that all will be OK, once you just get through it. And you pray daily that you do.

Well, he’s back now to really tidy you up and get you out. Remember you have had the visit from Saturn in Scorpio, by now you know what he is trying to show you or tell you. What do you have to open up to, be released from, so you can be transformed. You are being given another opportunity to go over and re-do the things you missed before, ideal time to put into place the things you perhaps wanted to do, but fear was hanging around and it’s get too much. Like really, you can only handle so much.

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Saturn in Scorpio is the guiding light for the lost soul, guiding you to find true expression of yourself and you know Saturn is the task master, come to teach your soul a few lessons, what he really wants to do is get you on track, to go, be or find your true calling, be really honest with yourself and dig deep to turn and purge your life, because if you are not being true and your just playing around, this teacher does not like it. My favorite line for Saturn is growth through limitation or pressure.

Taking and being responsible for your life is also part of this, and by this I mean being honest with yourself and living a true and honest life and then of course live it, walk it and talk it, this will become stronger when Saturn enters Sagittarius again, you still have to get real and work through the fear of allowing the full expression of you to come out.

Scorpio ruled by Pluto is the soul, evolution of the soul, to grow, transform, die and be reborn and it’s painful, honest, difficult, and ugly, in your face, messy, scary, and filled with fear most of the time.

If you know your birth chart look at the area or house that Saturn is in. This is the place he wants to help you change and be reborn in. My Saturn in Scorpio experience is at the very bottom of the chart 3 – 4th house, my inner, inner world and feelings the very core of my being. My home, roots, comforts and security and for most of the time I was really scared and filled with dread, feeling not very stable, I placed a lot of safety, security on the material/physical world, which is very Saturn, however I have realized that my inner, inner world my emotions/ feelings/intuition are the things that will keep me safe/sane and following my path.

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I did not enjoy all of the last 2 years or so, it was difficult and long, the time did open me up to finally start doing what I really wanted to do, it also has helped me really be my own authority by listening to my inner voice, if I go off track I really feel the pressure of this, and of course I am still learning as I go. I felt I had made many bad choices and was put to the test of keeping my head above the water, Scorpio’s water and many times I felt I was going down, down and down. And work, you have to do, that’s Saturn’s part, the daily grind of working it all out with the pressure of it all on your back. It all feels like a somber burden when Saturn is around, you don’t’ feel light and happy. However he does give you strength and toughens you up. You do grow up inside, plus you usually know yourself better for it.

I did not feel any relief until he finally entered my 4th house and I felt I could breathe again on some level, because he cannot go any further than the very bottom of the chart, feel some lightness enter the dark. Ha, even as I write this I can feel the fear creeping back into my chest and throat and my mind goes… what if I am wrong?

Ha! Right, let’s put that all back into perspective shall we.

Here you go again into the depths of Scorpio with Saturn guiding the way; YOU know you can do it, keep the fear in perspective don’t let it take over and run away with you, don’t let other people’s fears or emotions get you carried away. Keep it all in check. Please do not be controlled by it.

Saturn will enter Sagittarius again and this is when you will feel freedom at last, so get ready to fly……

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URANUS square PLUTO…..breakdowns and breakthroughs!

Not sure what to write there’s a lot happening in the sky for this week and also next, this is the week that it all starts and the thing is, it will be different for everybody depending where you are at on your evolutionary journey. I guess this is all building to the last square between Uranus and Pluto, the new moon @29 degrees Pisces, the eclipse plus the Sun entering Aries, so between now and the end of the month many and all things could or can happen.

What’s happening now is Mars is trine (with ease) to Jupiter on 10th, MARS conjunct (meets up for a new cycle of action and potential) Uranus on 11th, Mars squares (conflicts for growth) Pluto on 12th with this move Mars triggers it all, well, the square between Uranus and Pluto which will be exact on the 17th, it’s building up this week.

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What does it all mean, change, expansion, breakdowns so we can have breakthroughs, releasing the past and moving on, using all the energy passion, drive, determination, deliberate action to get us going and in some cases this has been more of a push/ shove, melt down with massive awakening to get us to just move, let go and grow, like hey…. have YOU changed already!

Hopefully the end result of all the Pluto square Uranus which started in 2012 will be worth it and transformative for you, and you have grown/ changed into the person you long to be, which usually meant you having to dig really deep into your shit, facing yourself full on and in some cases others, just to get the hell out again. That would be Pluto’s end and let’s NOT forget Saturn in Scorpio helping us to get really serious, dirty and real.

Here is a bit of info about the two in the mix.

Uranus ,God of the sky and the heavens, is the ruler of Aquarius (“I know”,air sign).The great awakener. The energies of Uranus are electric , sudden change , futuristic , celebrates originality , weird or quirky, willfulness, individuality and personal freedom. Uranus is associated with technology, innovation, discovery, enlightenment, progressiveness, objectivity, and the genius. Uranus is highly intuitive, represents the spark of intuition that spurs invention. Uranus is the rebel in us that will seek out change and one never knows with Uranus. He’s been in Aries so we have the warrior energy moving us forward and taking us to new places and new beginnings, and it’s usually done with passion, intention and a full on spirit.

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Pluto is the lord of the underworld and rules Scorpio (“I desire”, water sign). In astrology Pluto is all about death, rebirth, transformation, loss, power , sex, the occult, subconscious forces, whats below the surface, reincarnation and the soul . Pluto wants to transform things that have gone past their use by, he will take it away , remove, people, situation and circumstances for you to grow and change. Pluto takes away the old so the new can be built. It’s about evolution. He’s been in Capricorn, have a goal and plan, with a great deal of discipline, determination, strength, he’s wanting us to let go of the old structure to rebuild something, begin again, but let’s make sure it is real and in harmony with our true nature.

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Well, after next week, that will be the end of the square off between the big guns up there, but don’t worry they will still be lurking around other corners bumping into other planets to let you know that they are still with us changing, transforming the world with one breakthrough at a time.

How’s your life now, how have you changed since 2012? Have you taken the challenge on and gone with it or are you still struggling to maintain the same even through you may actually just want to let it all go.

It’s been a journey alright, with many highs, lows, twist, turn, breakdowns and breakthrough, laughs and rage, LOVE and fear, but most of all it has been …….LIBERATING!

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You Deserve LOVE ……you are lovable! V-Day card

“We accept the love we think we deserve.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
And, yes like many of you, I have, sometimes still do believe i am a bit of a wallflower when it comes to love and dating. Wishing for the great love and romance but at the same time hovering in the corner saying to self please, let this one not be like all the rest or is it just me. I have come to the conclusion it’s not me! And I hope you do to.
Having relationships are very difficult, complex and I will write a blog on that, as I struggle with them, I will say that I have Saturn in Aquarius, Chiron in Pisces in the 7th house(partner house), Mars in Capricorn, words from my mentor Tom Kaypacha lescher “I want to shut the door on that one. or as another astrologer said to me once “you would rather poke yourself in the eye then have a another relationship”, I node YES to all.

However, being the optimistic Sagittarius that I am, I am still hopeful in the love department. I have not closed the door (I have slammed it shut for a while), my eye’s are still good, So with that……

Happy Valentines day.

Using the “romance angels” deck from Doreen Virtue, of course, i plucked a card or the day.

You Deserve Love-you are lovable!

Ha…. just what we all need to hear and know because we are, deep down inside we do know it!
This card is talking about not feeling good about yourself and the harsh life experience we often have, we do blame ourselves and in most cases we end up not loving ourselves and feeling not good enough. This is a reminder that we are more than worthy of receiving love and affection.
The image on the card is of a women in her power, strong, seeking what she wants, aiming for it with her eye definitely on the goal, feeling supported, confident and guided.
But, most of all-knowing that she can have that loving feeling, when she/he starts to believe in/trust her/himself, know she/he is SO much more than her past experience.
You have heard it all before, love yourself, so true, in many ways, as when you really, truly love yourself AND except you for all that you have gone through, all that you have done, you may actually start to believe that you have the heart to go out again, that someone may SEE you, except you and love you.
Believe me I know, it’s not easy, so maybe for a day we can put all the baggage and bullshit behind us, open up to love , enjoy the moment, cherish ourselves, connect with who we love after all it’s a day about LOVE, so spread it around.

V-Day falls when the Sun is in Aquarius , it’s the universal sign of L.O.V.E. unconditional love, love for all of humanity, global love for every single living thing. Moon will be in Sagittarius another freedom loving sign.

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Go figure it’s really big, big, big LOVE day.
And if you’re not partnered up (this is the day we dread) go out, treat yourself with kindness, be your own valentine, as love is an inner thing and at the end of the day we all have that.

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